Spring Style Lookbook with Charlotte Russe!

Hey beauties! I’m so excited to tell you that Charlotte Russe has officially expanded their plus-size range. We teamed up to show you a few outfits highlighting their awesome clothes in a way that could express my Spring style!

CHARRUSSE1For this first outfit I paired this beautiful cardigan/kimono from Charlotte Russe with a pair of their light wash destroyed jeans. Under the cardi I wore a simple navy tank from Abercrombie & Fitch, and for shoes I chose a brown pair of booties from ShoeDazzle! For accessories I kept things simple & silver, pairing a long necklace with several midi rings from Forever 21.

GET THE LOOK:
Cardigan: Charlotte Russe (1X)
Jeans: Charlotte Russe (16)
Shoes: ShoeDazzle

CHARRUSSE2My next outfit was a bit more classic, in my opinion. This striped dress from Charlotte Russe was admittedly a bit loose in my bust area (I got a 1X if you’re curious) but I loved the style so much that I had to make it work. My tights are from Spanx, and the shoes are Target. My necklace is a simple, dainty one that I got from Forever 21.

GET THE LOOK:
Dress: Charlotte Russe (1X)
Tights: Spanx

I hope you beauties will check out the new Charlotte Russe Plus expansion! What’s on your must-have list?

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Numbers.

One of the things I thought about before YouTube: numbers.

800 friends on Facebook seemed like a pretty normal number to me. I never looked at someone else and thought, ugh, I wish I had as many friends as they did. I never rolled my eyes at those with less than me. That was just the amount of people I knew that I wanted to remain in contact with, and it had no meaning other than that.

One of the things I think about now that YouTube is my creative outlet and full-time job: numbers.

As we inch closer and closer to that 100,000 mark, I find myself checking my YouTube stats a bit too frequently. Crazy thoughts begin to run through my mind: why didn’t I gain as many subscribers as yesterday? What if I did and I just lost a ton of subscribers? Did I say something offensive? Why did that video’s views skyrocket in the last 24 hours, did someone make a response video saying what a horrible role model I am? Did my personal information leak? Oh God, should I take down that video where I said that character from American Horror Story was loveable? 20 people disliked that video.

Cue racing heart here. Cue me shyly retreating to my bedroom, leaving my phone and computer until I feel brave enough to check those numbers again here. Cue feelings that I am small, inadequate and foolish here.

Numbers aren’t on my mind in a positive way most of the time, I’m ashamed to say. I’m humbled and honored to know there are so many people watching my videos, but it often gets drowned out by my anxiety over the numbers. As our little friendship circle has grown, I’ve felt like I can reach less and less of you, and that scares me. There isn’t enough time in the day to respond to every comment anymore. Often times I don’t catch the negative/nasty comments until it’s too late and the user has started an absolute war in the comment section. I do read as many as I can, and I try to respond – especially to those of you who are kind. Most of the time, every last one of you is. But there are now and then, people that come along and try everything in their power to ruin my day. Words still hurt, even when it’s a single negative out of the thousands of positives.

I found myself growing particularly bitter during the last month, when the negative comments began flowing in faster than they ever had before. There was so many people telling me that I was worthless, awful, fat, ugly and wrong that I began to wonder, is it me? Should I not have worn those holy jeans in that video? Should I not have talked about being active for two hours a day, though at the time I was? Am I really so horrible after all? Should I not be preaching body positivity, self-love, beauty tips and fashion advice to all of these women?

Actually, I’m proud to say that the last thought has never crossed my mind. You, my lovebugs, are what continue to bring me back to a place of clarity. I remember that you are the reason I have a platform to speak on in the beginning, and for that I’m truly grateful. While the negative comments don’t get any easier, I realize that you are the ones I should be focusing on, not neglecting because my feelings are hurt. Without you, I wouldn’t be who I am now, and I truly mean that. Thank you for your support. Whether you’ve liked a video, commented something thoughtful and kind or simply subscribed. Those numbers mean more to me than any other ever will.

Recently my plus-size swimwear lookbook has gotten a bit of press. San Francisco Globe wrote a small piece on it, as did the lovely Chie Davis from Upworthy. Without your endless love and support, these kinds of things wouldn’t happen for our channel, and I’ll never forget how this feels. Thank you. Love you.

Your Loey

Spring. (Photoset)

Hi my beauties. I plan on sharing more photos from my trip back home soon, but for now, I wanted to show you photos that my best friend Hannah and I took at the Georgia Botanical Gardens this past weekend. We drank coffee, laughed, talked and took the most lovely adventure through the gardens. Hope y’all enjoy!

This photo was SO stinkin’ hard to get. I swear we have like, thirty failed attempts for this. But finally the lighting was perfect, our hair was magnificent and the heart was centered. I feel like this belongs on Tumblr.

Forever Grace face.

There’s an inside joke within our circle of friends that I’m secretly Sleeping Beauty. Partially due to my long blonde hair, partially due to the fact that I actually am a princess, but mostly because I really, REALLY like sleep. Like a lot. Hannah took this photo and I’m just in love with it, I think it looks so Sleeping Beauty-esque and ethereal!

Full disclosure: Hannah took this. Isn’t that just beautiful? These flowers are gorgeous, can’t think of their name to save my life, but I’m in love.

As we were leaving the botanical gardens, we spotted this magnificent little meadow right behind a parking lot. How random and perfect is this abandoned log?

Thank you all, as always, for reading my ramblings. Love you.

♡Your Loey

Weekly Roundup: Caturday Vol. 4

The happiest of Caturdays to you, my beauties! Hope y’all had a marvelous week. Mine was jampacked, so let’s jump straight in.

Best day this week?

– Oh, can’t I have two?! It’s my weekly roundup, so I say yes. 😉 This week was a little intense, emotionally. Wednesday was by far the worst. So at the last minute Tyler and I decided to grab a pizza with one of our friends, Cruz. She’s a sweetheart and never fails to make me laugh, so of course it turned my mood around. Plus, who doesn’t love a good slice of pizza now and then?!

Friday we wound up going out with her and a few other friends for drinks (I drank fake mixed drinks all night because I’m like 12 wtf) and then we did a bit of shopping around. There were a lot of laughs and memories made that night. I love that I finally feel like I have a mini family out here, a support system I’m completely comfortable with.

Worst moment this week?

– Two years ago this May, my sweet Jake passed away. He was a HUGE part of my life. I’ve been taking it a little harder than usual, and it just so happened that Wednesday it hit me in the worst way. All I could do was cry for a couple hours and wish that he was here to hug me and tell me everything was going to be alright.

What did you accomplish?

– I filmed. I edited. I planned for our trip home at the end of this month. I video-gamed (South Park: The Stick of Truth is my crack). I honestly wasn’t very productive this week… unfortunately.

What’s the plan for next week?

– Tyler has a field, so I’ll be all by my lonesome until next Friday! I plan on deep-cleaning the apartment and getting it ready for our new puppy, Maka. She’ll be coming back from Georgia with us and I want to have everything perfect for her! I also need to film and upload so that I don’t have to while we’re back home. It’s not necessarily going to be exciting and will definitely be a bit lonely, but hopefully I’ll be about 100% more productive than I was this week!

That was it for this week! What were you up to, pretty baby?! Let me know in the comments below or on your own blog, and I’ll chit chat with you later.

♡Your Loey

Weekly Roundup: Caturday Vol. 3

Oh, I want to be a good blogger. I do. In case you haven’t noticed, my blog isn’t monetized. I love YouTube, and if I start listing off all the reasons why I’ll never finish this post. But YouTube, while it is intensely fun, has also proven to be an actual part-time job for me. There’s a level of perfectionism I aim for in my videos. I want my blog to be a place I can just come to talk. I’m trying very hard to get back on schedule with these posts… and I appreciate your patience! Onto this week’s roundup.

Best day this week?

– Ironically, Saturday (which I wouldn’t have been able to include had I posted this on the day it was supposed to go up… haha). This week was sort of quiet for the most part, lots of work, getting projects moving and planning my trip home this month. Saturday was absolutely incredible. I hit 5,000 subscribers on my YouTube channel (!!!), Tyler and I had a lovely morning coffee date and that evening we went to a get-together at a local sports bar. One of the boys in Ty’s platoon leaves the Army on Monday, so we were seeing him off in the best way possible… by watching him get right trashed. 😛 I was horrified when the bill came, however! They charged an arm and a leg for shots (we’re talking like $7.00, I’m not joking). If you’re in the Manhattan area, steer clear of Willie’s! Service sucked, everything was SUPER pricey and the place wasn’t very well kept up with.

All of that aside, it was really fun to get to see everyone. Afterwards we went to our friends’ place, played Call of Duty and watched the snow fall. Those friends have the CUTEST son in the history of man… he was busy until bedtime showing me his Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles collection and telling me how to properly kill aliens in Extinction mode on COD.

Worst moment this week?

– I’ve been experiencing a LOT of anxiety here recently. I’ve been a touch snappy and on edge. I can’t pinpoint an exact moment that sucked worse than the others, but I just know I’ve been a little irritable lately. Tyler is a freaking Godsend and he knows me all too well. One of those days I was just kinda down in the dumps, he looked at me and said, “I want to reorganize this weekend.”

I THRIVE on change and organization, so this excited me way too much. After I finish this blog post I think we’re actually moving around the bedroom a bit. Can’t wait to show y’all!

What did you accomplish?

– Well, I got back in some photos from a local photographer I recently worked with, so I’m editing those here and there and getting them ready to put up on the blog (and also in my modeling portfolio). I answered a TON of freaking business emails that I’d just had piling up in my inbox for ages. I’m also puppy proofing the house for our now three-month-old husky puppy that we’ll be getting in the middle of this month, that took up a huge chunk of time this week. I did laundry, and that’s always an accomplishment.

What’s the plan for next week?

– Tyler has a few appointments next week, so I’ll be going with him to those. I have a lot of new products, things I’ve bought and also things I’ve received for PR purposes that I need to start testing so I can get videos up on them. We’re also looking at houses next week (EEEEEK). And I need to do something with the copious amount of raw spinach I have in the refrigerator, so it’s going to be an interesting week for salad.

I want to know what you did this week! Leave me comments below or copy and paste the questions into your own blog. Until next time, pretty loves.

♡Your Loey

The Curvy Diaries: Winter to Spring Lookbook

Hello my little snow puffs. As I’m typing this, it’s snowing and thundering and all sorts of grey outside. D: So it’s hard to imagine this Winter EVER transitioning to Spring, but today I uploaded my Winter to Spring lookbook! I’m very comfortable in my dark jeans and boots, so I kept a lot of the basics the same throughout all three outfits.

I love this top from the Bethany Mota line for Aeropostale. I got it on MASSIVE clearance (less than five dollars!) and didn’t really realize why it was so marked down until I got it home… there is a giant hole in the back of the arm area! I was so disappointed when I saw it and it’s extremely obvious, especially since the top is full lace. I’m probably never going to wear it out of the house, but I did think I’d get my use out of it for this lookbook (and if I can find another one, I’m totally snatching it up). My jeggings are American Eagle and my boots are from Payless. The top is such a standout piece that I kept the accessories simple, a gold roman numeral bracelet  from the Jamie Brooke Gallery and a vintage gold ring. This is the most wintery/dark outfit in the lookbook, but since the top is sheer, full lace, I think it’s also young and playful.
I LIVE in that button-down on chilly, rainy spring days! The colors are so bright and fun… not to mention it’s the softest, coziest flannel ever. It’s from Old Navy and I left the top two and bottom two buttons undone for a more casual look. I paired it with a pearl necklace from Forever21 (that you can’t really see in these pictures… sahrry.) to give it a ladylike touch, then wore the same jeggings and boots from my first outfit. This outfit is perfect for those chilly Spring mornings that turn into warm afternoons, because you can always wear a cute top underneath and just tie the flannel around your waist come lunchtime.

Alright, not going to lie, I’ve worn this outfit like, three times in the last month alone. I love this open knit grey sweater from Hollister, especially paired with my favorite mint green polka dot scarf from Forever21. With my dark blue jeggings and riding boots, it’s a cozy, cutesy outfit I can wear now and later on in the warmer months. It’s so cheerful and bright!

Which outfit was your favorite? Let me know in the comments below. Thank you beauties for being so patient with me while I’m getting back on the bandwagon of writing blog posts! It’s been a busy last two months, it’s going to be an even busier next two months… looks like this year is getting off on the right foot! 🙂 Love all of you to pieces.

♡Your Loey

Ulta Nail Polish in Peach Parfait & Boogie Nights

Wait a minute… I have a blog?!

Well, hi Curvy Diaries readers! Sorry I’ve all but disappeared from you. January was frantic, but too wonderful to even begin to explain. I’ll be doing a post to talk about everything and show you a TON of photos, but for now I want to share two new goodies I bought on my trip home. Ulta had their brand name nail polishes on sale for $2 apiece and I couldn’t resist. The colors I’ve tried from this line have been absolutely phenomenal, and so I grabbed two new ones.

The first shade is called Peach Parfait and it is a lovely, milky peach. It’s soft and pastel while still having that true peach color to it, and I love that it’s a cream finish. A lot of the times with more neon shades you get a matte finish that you HAVE to put a topcoat over, but this one remains shiny and beautiful. I used three coats to get it fully opaque. Then to coordinate with it I picked up Boogie Nights, a gold glitter sprinkled with flecks of pink and blue. It looks like a freakin’ party on your nails! This was opaque in two coats and doesn’t feel chunky or clumpy, though I put a top coat over mine.

Final verdict? You NEED the Ulta brand polishes. Several colors of them, actually. Do I think they’re worth the $6 they retail for? Probably. But I’d much rather wait until they go on sale for $2, which happens quite frequently. I highly recommend both of these shades for Spring. Do you love this range as well? Let me know any colors you’ve tried in the comments below!

♡Your Loey